The uninvited guest on my ovary that may never have existed..

This Blog is called C is for CUNTS and CANCER for two simple reasons;
The world is full of both of them!

Now; I hope I´m not one, though being female I evidently possess one and two, hopefully will never suffer from the other, though for many months I was fearful of having a Tumor ( Annoying C**t!) which now seems to have been misdiagnosed....
Moral dilemma coming up: Just prasie the lord that im recovering well from an operation that found the real cause and am now improving daily and free of the the fearful C word or.....think you stupid stupi f*****g C**ts in the medical profession, why don´t you ever listen to your patients and admit you don´t always have the answers????????????? and save us a lot of stress and worry...and and....
Yes im having to get this off my chest...
But something good HAS come of all this...oh boy have i had months of introspection, facing the fear and finding out who my friends are....

THE GREAT TABOO THAT IS DEATH...

-Am currently contemplating the great taboo that is death..well taboo subject in the west at least. Its the only gr8 truth that unites us all...what do we fear? The unknown perhaps? it's curious really...


http://youtu.be/l3JOpDd-g_U  clips from Vanilla sky with Sigur Ros track...BEAUTIFUL, MOVING, EMOTIVE MUSIC.


-BOTH "ABRE LOS OJOS" AND THE REMAKE, "VANILLA SKY" FASCINATE ME. EXPLORING THE POSSIBILITY OF CRYOGENICS- WOULD WE HONESTLY WANT TO LIVE FOREVER- ETERNAL LIFE-ETERNAL LOVE-OR ETERNAL PROBLEMS?


-OR PERHAPS OUR FEAR IS A CONTROL ISSUE, EUTHANASIA/SUICIDE ASIDE, IT'S THE ONE THING WE CANNOT CONTROL NATURALLY. THE REALITY IS, DEATH IS MUCH HARDER FOR THOSE LEFT BEHIND, THE ABSENCE OF A LOVED ONE.


MY OWN REALITY AS I FACE UP TO MY OWN FEARS AS, PERSISTENT TERATOMA TUMOR ASIDE, THE CONCERN OF THE HPV 16 THAT APPEARED IN MY SMEAR TEST RESULTS AND THE SUBSEQUENT TESTS AM CURRENTLY UNDERGOING HAVE PUSHED ME INTO EXAMINING MY FEARS, EXPECTATIONS AND JUST ABOUT EVERYTHING AND EVERYONE AROUND ME.
  THIS IS NOT A BAD THING-OUT OF NEGATIVITY WE CAN DISCOVER POSITIVE CHANGES, IN BOTH MINDSET, LIFESTYLE, EMOTIONAL APPROACH..