the outcome of something or the safety of someone "
Part one is over, part two is about to begin.
The realization that my worst fear can now be put to rest: The blood test results are now completely normal..the uninvited
visitor on my ovary has shrunk by nearly half in a dramatically short space of time.
An opearation is no longer necesary.
The gyno looked somewhat puzzled to say the least, as she gazed at the scan. Things had changed pretty quicky.
Again, i would be lying if i said, i was simultaneaously filled with both intense relief and joy.
Actually, nothing sank in that was being said, and every question i asked began with "But.."
I felt detached, as if it were happening to someone else, in fact i've felt that pretty much up until the last few days.
Now, how crazy does that seem? I should be celebrating, jumping with joy, but let's face it, human emotion is not quite as straightforward as that.
I feel almost guilty for admitting this, but i then experienced another kind of fear and anxiety
" Now what? what do i do with this new information? this lesson in life? How do i confront the unresolved issues that i know are Undoutably part of what brought me to this point of ill health in the first place?
As i sit here caressing my hormone crazed kitten, i'm beginning to find some of the inner peace that remained absent the other day. Am i really surprised by the outcome? Is it not what i've always believed,
that we can take control of our own health, and are not simply at the mercy of the medical profession?
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